There are times when I feel it’s the end, Whether to my profound happiness or my uncared pain I’m not aware, I feel like breaking free from this prison of torment within which I’m encaged, Which feels a task so lucid with my fists clenched and my heart burning With a perilous fire of rage.
Because I’m tired of a bleeding heart, I’m tired of my salty tears, I’m tired of the gloominess I’m enforced to endure, In this massacre whether I’ll survive I’m unsure.
And even though there are moments when people show they care, My self-hatred has grown everlastingly that those moments seem unfair, Because all I do is cause people pain endlessly, Sometimes I feel the world would be a better place without me.
And that’s when I fall asleep from the excruciating thoughts, But then I wake up and again go through the same, My life seems to be slipping from my hands, But there’s no point of having one for internally I’ve collapsed.
I feel like it’s Groundhog Day, Where the same insane sorrow sanely I try to treat everyday, But I’ve tried every way, No stars are gonna shine as there is no light, In my gloomy little sky called life.
So for once I’ll follow my heart, No matter how much it bleeds and helplessly cries for hope, For once and forever I end your troubles dear friend, For now to this massacre I put an end.
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My conscience was under redevelopment And I had visitors in the new home I built, They came and go, some stayed for long, But the unwelcome guest never left.
The unwelcome guest stayed in the bottom cellar, Which was there in the pit of my stomach, Isolated it was, as there was no room To notice it, with the other visitors.
The unwelcome guest was often hungry, But it had learnt to oppress its hunger, Because in the dining room in my heart, There were other guests being fulfilled.
Until one day, there was silence, Etching onto the corners of my stomach, The hunger of the unwelcome guest could no longer be suppressed, It made its way to the dining room.
The seats were empty and the shadows lurked, My conscience was now a building out of order, I have learnt to fix what’s broken and I solve equations I get accidently right, But the unwelcome guest has cast a shadow so dark, Every light has ushered out, The chandeliers in my heart don’t sparkle anymore.
There are no visitors willing to stay, Everything is intact but nothing is right, But the unwelcome guest remains ghosted, Until one day.
As the unwelcome guest wants to take over, And become the owner of the house I’ve grown till now, Which though is out of order right now, With the unwelcome guest pulling the reins, My home will destroy to ruins.
The unwelcome guest can’t be fed anymore – as it has become the feeder, It is eating at me and every part I call home And leaving me with my veins ripped off,
It’s waiting for the pain to become so deep that it’ll become a habit to master over time, The only thing I feel would be emptiness, Because pain would be the habit which will become me, And the only feeling I’ll ever feel, but yet not a feeling.
The unwelcome guest cannot be defeated, As hatred is what I deserve, I have tried too hard to be someone I think I was But now I know I am nothing, But a puppet in the hands of this guest I did not invite.
The dining room has turned into an empty stage, The windows are shut and the roof at a endless height, The dust of the diner’s footsteps are hiding behind faded curtains, The path is now paved with broken glass
As the unwelcome guest has become my owner, My soul is surrendered to that invisible face, Which has been proving me wrong since the day I believed, That peace was something I could achieve.
Hello everyone! I had written this one a while back however I am posting it now. This poem is a fictional piece of work, with the concept of ‘the unwelcome guest’ being the central motif, that is a concept, idea, object which repeats itself throughout the text and is hence recurring.
The poem begins with the setting of a well- built house, with the unwelcome guest not being prominent due to being kept buried by the owner. However, gradually the factors the owners held on to for not dealing with the unwelcome guest eventually moved away which paved way for the unwelcome guest to take control, rather than the owner having the chance to deal with the unwelcome guest.
The main motive for writing this poem was to display the disturbing effects of the negative feelings inside us, and how keeping it buried does more harm than good.
Yes, it is important to have a perspective to understand our thoughts and emotions and our very being, but it is alright to not have an immediate perspective about everything, and sometimes feeling your negative emotions is the only way to gain needed perspective.
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My thickest voids scream into
The toxic visions of reality,
They dwell on the highs and escapes;
As I dive into my consciousness,
And search within the dark waters.
Every cliff, Just, One metaphor.
That’s all I need right to describe
My poetic hallucinations.
I am drifted on this island,
where everything I see is controlled by
the puppet master inside my head. Grey clouds and raging storms, With swirling letters once thrown away.
I did not choose to envision these disturbing sceneries,
But they happen to be the things that control me. My insatiable sanity stirs my soul into delusions, And spins a web of beautiful lies to make suicide seem noble.
I rip the pillow covers of their burden,
of soaking my emotions every night,
The chains break in their efforts
To bar my soul so it doesn’t free itself,
Of the magical metaphors I write to survive.
I maintained hope,
But it consumed me.
My every breath tripped,
Along the crevices of the cliffs
Of high expectations,
I had from myself.
Hope came crashing down And ghosted itself behind dusty corners,
As I crumbled,
Piece by piece,
Every shred of my sanity,
Being stripped down till nothing but a deep void.
I am told,
Whenever you describe your dark parts in a poem,
And you emerge victorious.
But if I do,
I won’t live to see the party.
Because I am that demon to be erased, I am the metaphor, Balancing on my grave.
And the cicada bellows a horror tune,
Into the turbidity of thoughts of the chilled night,
That petrifying screech of intense terror.
And its horror,
Provokes the aeons and alerts their nerves,
With an abandoned pain
Of a long-forgotten tale.
And somewhere the oak leaves rustle,
Perhaps to calm the cicada’s call,
Or to soothe an ear bleeding velvet of woes,
Or to ruffle the rough pages inked with distorted handwritings,
Scratch poetry written loosely,
The pages repeatedly falling down,
As if the God’s way of saying “Nah, don’t write any further”.
Somewhere a broken warrior,
Loses a fight,
In the battlefield of life,
And the cicada is now the sound of vanquished hope,
But the wind is the voice of the Almighty,
Encouraging words of hope beckon this warrior,
To make her realise,
Broken she is,
But destroyed she is not.
The pieces though shattered are a part of her,
If binded well,
The battle ends.
And here I stand amidst this thick haze,
This hazy envelope of the mysterious night,
Foamed with the tales of broken souls,
Valiant, yet short of hope.
Eerie for some, comforting to plenty the night does sound,
But to me it’s sound of the ringing death knell,
As I stand up at the window sill,
And gaze up at the distorted moon,
Purposelessness crawling up my torn skin,
Hopeless eyes of archaic stones,
Shot with the hard-hitting lunar light,
The fire of this plight burns more bright,
My vision blurred,
Eyelashes drooping like showered rooftops,
My heart thuds against my chest,
Heavier than the crashed hopes of my past.
And I then see my destination down,
And feel the desire to taste,
The unfathomable joy of death.
Just one step,
And it all ends.
The final destination,
Of my psychotic pain.
I step ahead and fall,
A feeling I’ve never felt before I feel in my final breaths, Freedom.
I hope you are happy now,
Do thank me for the boon I’ve bestowed upon you.
I thump down on the concrete ground,
My head hitting this pavement,
Has perhaps overpowered the cicada’s call.
My nerves bursting red in wrath,
I have pooled the pavement with demonic tears,
I feel the freedom through my deadened veins, You.
Hello guys! So I’ve written this one about my perception of the night and what it symbolizes. The poem is grave, I do agree, and I would honestly love to know in the comment section whether my poems are now getting repetitive concerning themes and if yes, do suggest some topics you would like to read. I am planning to make this blog more interactive.😊
Anyway, this poem is about a person who craves her rightful freedom which has been stolen from her and feels the only way to now be free would be death. The ending of the poem, however, can have many views. In fact, this whole poem can have various perceptions of it. What I intend to believe, is that she wishes to be with someone whom she is not free to, and is so driven by that despair and so disturbed with confusion that she believes that it is impossible for her to be free with the one she wants to be, but wants to be free nevertheless. In the end, her despair overpowers the desire for the initially wanted freedom and she only wants to be free of the gloom which has sadly consumed her life, causing her to commit suicide.
Basically, the message I truly intend to convey is sometimes the best thing you can do for someone is let them be free. Give them their time and space. The freedom of choice and belief. Let them be them and love them for it. Of course, misuse of freedom is extremely wrong, but everyone deserves their rightful freedom to not make them feel like a prisoner of birth.Do share your views and perceptions on this one.